to get up or ask questions,
I just took all for granted
I thought of it as part of normality.
I have learnt to live without power.
In silence, I observed everything around me
The real and the unreal makes no difference
because I saw no sense in struggling.
As I watched through the open door of my tent,
I saw the desert wind rising,
The sand was curling up in little spirals, all around,
It was a turning point for them.
Undeniably, I see myself growing old
It took me uncountable nights to come up with an idea
to surrender my will to God completely,
Though some thought my idea was insane.
Since I cannot know the tomorrow of death,
I was not afraid to entrust to a known God
my unknown tomorrow in His care
with the assurance that all will be satisfied.
I listened to my soul as it spoke to me;
All on earth without Christ is vain,
Christ's Cross bring light into our darkness,
His presence is an assurance for eternity.
Earth has enough of bitter in it,
I made heaven my priority.
Earthly life is finite, eternity is infinite
I chose graciously the things that bring me joy.
Subduing the pride of my heart,
I chose to return at peace with my soul.
I gave no sleep to my eyes nor rest to my eyelids
Until I have taken some steps towards my recovery.
Let not fears distress you
till you reach the standard of loving God with your soul
Life in Christ is the greatest treasure
Seek and invest in it. Heaven will be your reward.